Each Day At Best

This morning was a very beautiful morning! I love Sundays, I love worshipping at my church it’s the only time I look forward to every week. We were given the message pertaining to the Book of Hebrews continuing on the subject on faith. There were some great points that needed to be brought forth to me. Faith is a word of stepping forward in a place that is uncomfortable and restless. For me it can be uncomfortable and distrustful, but God is continually working on me concerning faith. This morning I also made the commitment to carry on with Nasserite vow, the church had a communion and I didn’t do the communion for reasons of this vow. I prayed to God to draw me closer to Him through the decision I made, and in my heart I believe He will do what He will with me. I’m ready to take this journey with the Lord, I need to do this, and I am called to do so. I am not sure what the Lord has in store for my kids and I but it’s going to glorify Him in everything I do. Today is a good day, maybe tomorrow won’t be so great, but at least I have this day to enjoy the presence of my God. One more thing of this morning that defined my spirituality was the Beth Moore Bible study. The ladies in the study were so encouraged to really dive into our study for this season. I plan to, I want to really get into the Word of God and get restored. I believe this is my year to be so close to God it’s going to be something I’ll never lose from Him anymore. My lil family and I are gonna be so set for life, I can see the future for us. I have always seen the future for us, a home that we’ve always wanted, at least I dreamed of my kids to have each their own room. Me… well I’d have my own big room with my own king size bed with lots of soft pillows. With a big window looking out to a majestic view looking toward a lovely scene of wilderness and art. The art of Gods masterpiece would be the ultimate view. Oh yes, it’s going to be a lovely home life we will have together, and of course I will finally have the job of my dreams. Anyway, it’s my heart’s desire that I give to the Lord every time I dream of our future which is every day. Tomorrow is the first day of classes at the Fort Lewis College, I am so excited to start my classes. I am ready to get this semester over with and work toward receiving my degree. When all is said and done May will be here and I will finally walk to get my degree! How exciting, I have waited all my life it seems working toward this moment to happen. What a great adventure to get to this point of my life, I can’t help to feel this excitement for my work. My kids are excited too, they have witnessed me graduation day to get my degree and again they get to witness me again to get another degree. It’s the only thing that really gets my mind out of the gutter of thoughts and trash of someone I use to love. I am strong enough to get on and leaving everything behind me… finally. I am so relieved that I can look out and if I happen to see that ugly trailer I use to sleep in and live in from time to time and not be bothered. It’s each day that is healing me, the Lord is so good to me, to give me strength, to take all the thoughts and take them. I give the thoughts of bitterness and anger to Him, I place it at His alter and He takes it. It’s a relief when He takes it, because who knows how He is going to handle it for me. It’s way better than what I would do, my ways are little compare to the Lords. Needless to say I am satisfied with this day Denver Broncos lost today and the Colts won. My ex and his family are Bronco fans, so I’m pretty happy about the outcome of how the game went. I know tomorrow is going to be a good day because every day is Gods day