Life and it's course

It's been an absolute time in this new year, kids are off to school and I am getting ready for classes on Monday. Life is going on as planned, unsurprisingly as always. Nothing seems to change even with the New Year, funny how you expect the New Year to ultimately and drastically change for the better. But no, the time we have just works as the last year that has past. I am in awe of how fast time just flies, it flies so fast, I mean my son is going to be eleven years old on Saturday. It's too fast, then, then! I am going to be 42 years old next month... It's amazing how life grows and flourishes with age. I feel pretty good about my age, I'm getting better each year that passes. Although things here in the trailer park are the same... the ex boyfriend is still there next door with his new life. I guess he's doing well, it sucks to notice certain things, it sucks to live next to a jerk who is a total asshole. Excuse my language... Sometimes I blurt out words that are inappropriate. And as you will see in my posts there are going to be not so nice words coming out of the not so perfect woman that I am. I can't help but to be bothered by the view from my window, I wish there was some way to remove my view to a better one. You know like a prettier one such as a majestic mountain. Anyway, I am looking forward to graduating from college this May. I just wished it was tomorrow. Thankfully the days go by fast and the things we look forward happens so quick, then it's gone again. It's true that we are but a wave in the ocean, a wisp in the wind, we must live each day with value and expectations. Today is going to be a good day, I am going to turn in in my letter to the financial aid office to try and get my assistance for this semester, and also hear from the housing authority on availability. I do hope there is housing for my children and I, I'd be so overjoyed on the news if it was Gods Will. If it was not, I'd be ok too... That just means I'd have to bear down on my thoughts and chain them up. Instead, work on the release of my mind concentrating on work and taking in lectures. Reading books and researching articles if there are going to be any this semester. Also this semester I am going to try to study for my GRE for graduate school in either in the fall of 2015 or spring 2016 at Purdue University. It's funny how things work toward something unexpected, such as when I broke up with my boyfriend back in October the Purdue University recruiters came to the college. Anyhow, I never thought I was good enough to attend graduate school, I thought for sure it would be just a bachelor's degree. Nope... God proved me wrong on that, He brought recruiters to get me! Yes, I even told them my GPA was not up to par at all, but that didn't stop them to consider me. That is one of my endeavors I have to work on this semester, to work on my letters of recommendations and research professors on research projects. I was looking into the area of interest of Health Sciences, it's perfect in the career of interests of environmental public health. I am interested in working in safety in construction, such as the oil industry, and coal mines if possible. For some reason I know everything is going to work out as planned, as God is going to make it. Sometime along the way, there is going to be a man in my life again. I see him in my sights, although I don't know him, I haven't a vision of clarity, but I know he's in my future. It's my childrens desire to have a father figure in their lives, and it's mine too. Sounds crazy? Maybe... But I have a dream, I know God sees the desires of my heart and by golly I am going to delight in Him who sees it. Today and tomorrow will be a great adventure, and I know that the next door ex will always be there, but at least I have my God, my Lord Who has me.